Struggling with self compassion, support is appreciated and thanks for listening to all this stuff
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LordLundin
Meg
It takes strength to do things like take cabs when the last time you’ve taken a cab you almost broke into someone’s house and they got very rude and told you that you don’t interfere with others property. But we are all human. I’m sure I’m not the first that it’s happened to. Plus there’s finances to think about plus even if I do go back to work right now, my friend who is taking me besides my dad is visually impaired. So she has to take buses just like I do and she scrambles me onto the bus and there we go and it’s like if you don’t like it then you need to be strong. I guess that’s hard to do when that person is your inner four-year-old child so to speak. I struggle with parents sometimes who discipline their kids for that reason because it’s like man my kid is just great. She’s being a handful today. Isn’t she awesome and it’s like where’s the compassion? Well, it’s probably there in the blankets where you’re cuddled up feeling sorry for yourself never want to go out. There has to be a balance, my friends. 
Meg
So what’s the answer? If I have talked to people in my life who are constantly telling me everything from your stupid girl who never ever be late again or else, how do I just cut them off and weed them out of my life and go on with things, especially when I rely on them for things like care? That’s the trouble here. Not to dwell on it but really I mean is it taking things one at a time one day at a time and vacuuming the house one vacuum session at a time or is it just saying I know that my growth means that in six months on a Saturday, I’m going to suddenly wake up and realize I’ve been learning in small steps out of vacuum I guess that self-contradictory, but I don’t have the answers and I’m very frustrated by it 
Meg
Just going just going through all the text comments first. Absolutely I believe you should talk to yourself like the four-year-old that you love. And forget society and all of that and try to forget stigma but, I find that most people who talk to themselves like they’re four-year-olds if anyone else found out it’s like you’re weak. You’re stupid you’re pathetic. Why is that? Sometimes my inner four year-old is the only thing that I hear. If that makes sense. 
In the end, there can only be… The one
LordLundin
LordLundin
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AttyRose
Self talk can be brutal! A very wise person told me once, talk to yourself like you are a four-year-old that you love. It can't hurt to try it! 
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