I’m up late doing laundry. Wanna shoot the shit?
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Meg
Anyway, it can’t be that bad but I don’t know how clean my weighted blanket is either and I absolutely hate tying it and one thing I hate is when people who are well meaning like family you say, you tell them you’re depressed and you don’t feel like shuffling the cards in the game or you don’t feel like challenging yourself and tying that blanket or cooking that meal and they say come on it’s not gonna be that hard and you need to try and you’ll learn and you’ll do it and it’ll be fine and then they push you to try and do it and you’re just not getting it and they’re like here here. It’s really not that hard and they just don’t give up. I mean, I don’t mind being cheered and comforted and everything but people who say you’re not trying hard enough or it’s just a little bit of work that’s not going to hurt you get your butt out and do it when you’re just really down low and frustrated that really doesn’t help. It makes me want to shake them and slap them in the face or something you know lol 
Meg
It does sound like you have a lot going on there Amber. I hope you’ll go easy on yourself with everything and I hope you got the company you needed. My brother wants to come and visit kind of unexpected for me to plan ahead right now and my niece‘s birthday is coming up so I have things to juggle. Thankfully, a friend helped me with grocery shopping yesterday and was more kinder than I thought she would be and showing up and getting out of the house really was nice. Well, I’m not much better either. We didn’t know the weighted blankets had those ties and weights on them, but it makes sense. My dad said when he bought it, he could only find the duvet, but I bet you there’s a nice blanket underneath it. My dad calls the big quilted things duvets my grandmother used to call them comforters. 
Meg
non 24 disorder*
Meg
Yes, I think I deal with undiagnosed on 24 disorder. Not sure. I mean, Eddie I had more light perception as a child but then I had glaucoma at 13 and basically it was like well. You’re better after the surgery no more pain but no more Christmas tree lights either deal with it or get defeated by it. Your choice. So there was a grieving period and still kind of is, but sometimes I can faintly see traces of the lights and that makes me happy.
Meg
Eddie, I’m not sure what your question was before you asked if I live alone. Currently, I’m taking a two week break while my dad goes on vacation and have the place to myself for two weeks, challenging with independence sometimes as I’m not completely independent, but much much needed. I get the whole family thing. Dad basically said I’m moving in and you are living with a parent for a year, last January and I felt I had very little choice. Would’ve had to fight and fight and fight for it otherwise. So that’s partly what’s caused the depression is just starting with an identity crisis after a tragic event as a teenager and realizing I still had to get the heck through school and was blind and had to just deal with it very quick and very fast. I’m still trying to combat it. I surround myself with the things I love. I try to process things through movies, though I am not a huge movie fan and I’m not looking for a lot of recommendations at this time. Lots of therapy, tons of compassion and grace. Finding the right people in this fast paced world that can be quite unkind a lot of the time. All work in progress. 
Becky Scott 🏳️🌈🔮
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Todd
Todd
user301926
speaking of weighted blankets and feeling happy! i love my weighted blanket!!
Amber
Amber
Eddie Howitzer
Also were you born blind? Reason I asked is that if you were born cited,  and lost your site later. That's a fucking depression hole that is hard to get out of 
Eddie Howitzer
Where does your depression come from Meg, and what did you do to combat it? 
Eddie Howitzer
Meg
Eddie Howitzer
Dammit! I just did my laundry, and I could have you done it! 
Meg